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January 4, 2011

Birthday Emotions

The girls’ second birthday is tomorrow.

Last year this time, I had been crying for days already. I can’t quite explain it, but I’m sure most moms understand.

For me, I was thinking about those last few weeks of pregnancy, how I wish I’d had my feet up more, and what I might have been able to do to keep the girls cooking just a little longer.

I was thinking how quickly the past year had flown, and hoping I hadn’t been too caught up in the tedium and missed some really special moments.

Last year, our girls were still babies, and I knew they wouldn’t stay that way for long.

So far this week, I haven’t shed any tears.

Part of it is that I know by now I can drive myself crazy with the “what if’s” and “woulda-shoulda-coulda’s”, and I avoid thinking about certain topics altogether.

But I think the bigger piece is that this past year has been pretty amazing, and I remark so often that it just keeps getting better every day.

For the most part, our girls aren’t babies anymore. They are little girls. They are full of song and dance and letters and numbers...hugs and kisses and cuddles and snuggles...walking hand in hand and exploring the world. I feel like every day I’m glimpsing the future, and I just love the thought of what it holds.

I can’t say I won’t cry tomorrow…when the clock strikes 9:47, and then again at 9:49…when I think about those magical moments that changed my life forever.

But if I do, I know they’ll be tears of joy and thankfulness.

Happy birthday, baby girls! It’s been an amazing year, and I’m looking forward to many, many more.


reanbean said...

I was much more emotional about the first birthday than the second one. There seemed to be so many transitions around the first birthday (weaning and transitioning to whole milk, more table foods, more mobile kids, etc...), and I felt overwhelmed by it all and a little sad that my babies weren't babies anymore (and that I most likely wouldn't be having any more). I remember feeling more hopeful and excitement with the second one. My babies were definitely little kids by the time they turned two, and I was beginning to look ahead to all the fun things we'd be able to do together. With the third one just a few months away, I'm feeling the need to plan a little something special this year. My kids know all about birthdays now and can't wait for it to be theirs. I'm expecting their third birthday to hold some of the same wonder and excitement that we experienced this Christmas.

I hope you all have a wonderful day tomorrow celebrating Baby A's and Baby B's birthday! I'm sure this next year will be full of excitement as you watch your girls learn and grow together. :o)

Helene said...

Oh goodness, I know how you feel. The first 2 years are filled with so many milestones that it's super hard not to be all emotional and sentimental about it.

I don't think my kids will ever endure another birthday without me counting down the time to them...."Hey guys, 6 years ago right at this very time, my water broke!" and it continues from there. They actually love hearing their stories every year and I savor it, knowing there will soon come a time when they roll their eyes at me and say, "Oh geez, will you stop it already?"


Happy birthday to your matter how old they are, they'll always be your babies!

MultipleMum said...

It is a wonderful milestone to celebrate (I hope yours get a cake on their birthday!). Two two year olds is quite a handful but they are so much fun and learning more each day and a real delight. I hope your girls have the best day! No tears Mum. Only smiles :)

Andrea said...

Happy 2nd Birthday sweet baby girls!

Mandy, I so get the emotions you are feeling! They are the same I felt for both the 1st and 2nd birthday. I hope you have a great day today with the girls!

Take care, Andrea

Mohini said...

Happy Birthday sweet little twins! and now Mandy Welcome officially to the terrible twos.

Rebecca said...

You should be crying from joy! It's so awesome, isn't it? I love this age...happy birthday to your little darlings!!!

Carrie said...

Happy Birthday to your girls! It really does get better and better every year!

Anonymous said...

yea! happy birthday girls! :) glad that you've been able to enjoy this past year more! that gives me hope. even though the kids are only 15 months...the time after the first year has been so much more enjoyable. not that the first year wasn't, it is just that i feel that i can participate more, i guess!

at any rate! happy birthday and enjoy the day!!!

Deanna said...

Happy Birthday, A & B!!

I totally seems to just keep getting better. Enjoy it!! : )

Quadmama said...

I was a mess on their first birthday. Since then, birthdays have been bittersweet. I'm so glad my "babies" are becoming confident little girls... but I miss my snugglie little babies. Have a wonderful birthday celebration.

Barbara Manatee said... just almost made ME cry! Happy Birthday to your beautiful girls!! Hope they had a fantastic day.

I know what you mean about it getting easier. I remember with the twins - when we hit 18 months I thought - this is getting so much easier already...and then BAM! along came another baby and it kinda got real hard all over again. But now, Adam is going to be 2 and life is DEFINITELY getting easier!! (well...most of the time! LOL!)

Liz said...

Happy birthday to your beautiful baby girls...yes I said "baby."
It's a bittersweet thing to see our little ones grow up- isn't it?
My boys are right behind your girls- they'll be 2 in March.
Hope you had an awesome time celebrating!