I'm Kind of Ashamed to Admit This...

…and this is not even the first time I’m writing about this.

What is wrong with me???

Or can this be characterized as part of the “dignity you lose when you have kids”???

::sigh:: ::deep breath::

Here ‘goes.

I ‘fessed up once before about watching Jon & Kate + Eight. I talked about having watched a few early episodes of the show, in awe of the simple idea of So Many Kids in such a small space.

When we began to make family plans, I started to pay a little closer attention, and then I began watching religiously when we learned we were having twins. I know TWINS are not SEXTUPLETS, but as an only child I was grasping for any insight I could get.

When the girls were born, I would sometimes relax during nap time by watching something mindless on TV…and at that time, it was so easy to find reruns of J&K+8 throughout the day. I remember they ran from 9:00 - 10:00, coinciding perfectly with the girls’ morning nap. I’d often tune in to maybe learn a little something…or doze off to the sounds of children laughing and crying (and Kate yelling).

I know the family had external help – I really think you’d HAVE TO with that many children – but I still found odd comfort in the situation. If Kate could do it with eight kiddos, I know I can make it through the next feeding with my two, I’d tell myself.

At the time when things started to turn south for Jon and Kate, I was still able to watch bits and pieces of the morning news programs (based on my girls’ schedule). I watched sadly as the family began to tear apart in such a public forum. My mind, of course, was on the children, kiddos I felt I “knew” a little bit from having watched them grow for quite some time now.

I’ve continued to tune in to watch the Gosselin family over the past year or so. There’s been much less learning about life with multiples, more watching the family on various adventures around the globe. Still, it has fulfilled my need for mindless TV (now after the girls are in bed, as I don’t dare turn on the TV during naps!). And I do occasionally make mental notes about experiences I’d like to have with the girls one day.

I think it was from the cover of a tabloid magazine in the grocery store newsstand that I learned Kate + Eight was being cancelled. I wasn’t surprised, as the show has lost most of its original appeal, at least in my opinion.

Still, I was a little sad…sad for the reminder of the break-apart of that family…and sad that something I’ve oddly tied in with my own family’s story was ending.

I watched the final episode on my DVR a couple of nights ago. And I’m kind of ashamed to admit this…but I may have gotten a little misty-eyed.

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